a heavy heart and a nervous stomach

So, yes, I have weeks (the number still unknown) until travel, and yet I am already a wreck! I have never done any international travel (besides Mexico) and certainly not on another continent. Trying to get my head wrapped around this trip makes my stomach hurt just thinking about it. I have not been sleeping great, which needs to stop already; I wake up with some idea of what might be helpful to have along, etc... and then my brain won't shut off.
Plus it's looking like it will be just my oldest son, Ben (10 years old) and I on this epic journey, which adds an element of fear, worry, anxiousness. ugh. What to pack, what will we eat, is Jenna still on a bottle?, what supplies might I need, etc.

I am, by nature, a worrier. So is Ben (the apple doesn't fall far from the tree, right?). But, rather than worry, which is absolutely useless (Matthew 6:34, Philippians 4:6), I am trying to focus on giving it to God and praying. I'd like to ask you to join me in prayer for some specifics:

• for Jenna's heart and transition. I have been completely blind-sided by the thoughts of how, while we're here making preparations for her arrival, looking at her picture and loving her more everyday, praying for her, prepping Emily for her, etc., she has absolutely no idea about us. We sent her a photo book, but c'mon, she's not even 2 yet. How much could she really be prepared for what is going to happen? It's really heavy on my heart. Trying to imagine and prepare myself for the enormous amount of grief that she will be experiencing.

• for me to trust God to take care of me while we're there. I'm worried about getting sick (lots of people get sick while there b/c of food issues, etc) which would be really difficult without an adult there to help me.

• also for me emotionally while we're there. I feel like this experience is the culmination of so much in my life. Being adopted myself and now being on the other side of it has been a very revealing experience for me....already. And there's so much more to come.

Thanks for joining us on this journey.

Sunday snapshot: it's really happening!

Here we are signing our LOA on Wednesday before overnighting it back to our agency for them to send on to USCIS for 800 clearance. Early on, we asked for generalized permission to make an orphan a U.S. citizen and now we have to ask to make this particular child a U.S. citizen. 

That's the next step.

I've never been this excited to see the FedEx truck! 

Receiving this document made it very real to me that it's really happening!

get this!

So, for many, many months; before we ever got our referral for Jenna, my husband and I have talked about how are we going to afford this adoption? We certainly didn't have that kind of cash stocked anywhere, waiting to be spent. As I've read more and more adoption stories, most people don't have the cash sitting there. It's about a call to step outside of comfortable, to go out on the branches to where the fruit is, so to speak, and more importantly, about obeying that call and responding. It's about having faith that God will provide in a big way. Financially, emotionally, relationally, and in ways I have yet to experience too.

So, one of the ways that we are setting out to raise some financial support is by hosting a concert at our church. But not just any concert. Mark Schultz. One of my favorites. My husband loves his storytelling and the stories behind the songs. I love the emotion of the songs and his personality and stage presence. His voice ain't bad either. ;)

We approached our church and said we had this big idea and could they get behind us to support it and let us use the church facility as a venue. They agreed. I feel that God is already blessing this event and I feel confident that he will use this event for His glory! Some things bigger than we could have thought are coming out of this event:

1. A portion of the proceeds will be used to buy supplies (namely a large air conditioning unit) for the baby room at the orphanage that Jenna is from. The place she has lived since being abandoned at nine days old.

2. We are getting some help financially to help this adoption happen and to bring Jenna home.

3. Another portion of the proceeds will be used to start a "seed fund" if you will, for the adoption and orphan ministry that is just getting started at our church. The ministry is called Grace for Orphans and we have a team of people that comprise this group who all feel called to be responding to the orphan crisis in some way. The fund would continue to grow and hopefully be used to bless other families who may choose in the future to give another orphan a family.

I love how God gives us more than we could ask for! Reminds me of the story of David wanting to build a house for God and God says no, actually, I am going to build a house for you. Remarkable. Bigger than we can imagine.

Anyways, if any of you readers are local (you know who you are!) please consider supporting this event by coming out for a very special evening of music with Mark Schultz
on Friday, May 21st at 7:00 p.m.

Tickets can be purchased at our church.

If you would like any more information, please contact me privately!
My email can be found in my profile.

"No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love Him." 1 Corintheans 2:9

day 43

 

LOA came today! As a total surprise too, making it all the sweeter. I always said I didn't like surprises, but now I don't know. This was pretty sweet.

Easter cuteness